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screw cheesy. damnit. [Dec. 3rd, 2004|06:24 pm]
Ray of light commin at cha gurl
kip i <3 you.
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(no subject) [Dec. 3rd, 2004|05:53 pm]
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[mood |pessimisticpessimistic]

Well that was the most Kip-talk you have ever used, meaning you're completely broad in your ideas and not specific at all. So even though i don't understand much, way to go team. i gues i know what it feels like to be on the other end for once. dude i completely understand why you wouldn't want to be here and i told you that before. you have everything going for you out there? and you really don't have anything here. work and school consumes my life, not new friends and fun times. i know mike is still completely attached to you and giving you crap, that's why i wish you two would just give it up and move on. really, still living in that past isn't going to get anyone anywhere. it's over. yea i think the summer wil suck for you. i mean i don't know how much you enjoy going out with me one night then katy or nick or linda or whoever the next, i'm sure we don't match up to brian and all those people anymore. god, at least by summer i may or may not have a new job, a steady group of friends, anything positive. i think it would be good for both of us if so. i mean i could bring you along anywhere if i had real friends and good places to go, let alone time to do it. so who knows, i have some time to sort that out. i'm sad that everytime i think i have a break, it falls though (when has it ever been any other way though). the people at work getting fired...now two guys going to the fucking army in less than two monthes! where does that leave me? i don't have the time nor energy to deal with mike anymore. kev is a once in a month or two type of friend now, so that amounts to nothing. i have the same attitude towards everything as always, but my musical taste has grown into new areas. and these areas lack any friends at all. it kind of sucks, i'm too busy to be really upset about it right now. i'm not even in the mood for chrstmas or shopping anymore, i just want to sleep or be drunk ha.
things suck, whatever. on my free time i do miss you mucho amounts, mostly because you are the only girl i like. no one to talk to, spend the night with, shop, find guys, anything. back to watching tv so i can catch up in my week of absence.
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(no subject) [Nov. 21st, 2004|10:12 pm]
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I guess nobody comes near to feeling/thinking what I think nowadays because It's not something that is "good" to hear. In my head it's just like " why would i stay there when if they had the chance to do what they enjoyed they would.... and then where would i be..." the answer= alone doing nothing that i enjoy because i chose to stay around just to be with them so that they wouldnt "be mad at me". But of course people always find a way to turn my words around. It's okay. Somebody might say that it's a bit selfish but aren't we all in a sense? I'm glad at least somebody is happy for me. Hopefully the summer goes somewhat well? ha. Or even christmas for that matter but yet again-- you have all moved on and have jobs and whatnot... so it just proves me right anyhow even though not many people see it that way. Hopefully we get some good " home time" together in the end at nights. hurray for nights and nothing to do on Fridays.
<3 rays of light
ps. thanks for introducing me to new snacks all the time. i buy those stupid chocolate chip granola things all the time.
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replied to wAT nigga?!~ [Nov. 19th, 2004|12:49 am]
Ray of light commin at cha gurl
[mood |quixoticquixotic]
[music |the TELEVISION]

madam-
sorry that this is late, i am either busy or too lazy these days. yes you are an asshole for calling me at 10 on the evening you came in...that's not time for planning. and i too was amazed that it was 4 am when i left your bed. i'm not sure what i was worried about in that note that "fixed itself"...i guess it could be mike? or a job...other than that nothing has been accomplished. my sexy lover from work was fired and it's just my luck. holy fuck. dude i didn't know how much i'd miss having someone that i can just show up at their house. like my whole life i wanted a best friend finally that would just naturally go everywhere with me and i could leave for their house at 2am and the rents wouldn't care. and then you left, thanks a lot. i don't hate you for it, and i'm not going to say you changed because i know that's not it. it's you being you finally, having the opportunity to because you have more than 2 friends. yet you're a bum and i miss the drunk girl that pukes on the floor. those are quality memories my friend. as much as i feel chicago has nothing to offer me ever; that i've seen all there is to see or can't go where i want to be, i think i'll always be here. i don't think i could live anywhere else after being exposed to such a city. o well, right now i don't think i have any future ahead of me anyway. you at least have some sort of motivation and constant money flow that proves your going to end up being successful. hey some people are better off saving the animals and nature out in the west. you wrote like you really missed chicago and dont have it made where you are. but i know you always say that you like it there better? you even told mike "i like it here, why would i stay there with you guys for the rest of my life?" so i see big contradictions. you will be back for the summer but then youll be sad and miss all your friends from there so that will be interesting. and i don't think you'll at all be satisfied with what we do here or the people for that matter. so i don't know how it will end up. all a big question as always. adios

what is quixotic? neat word
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craptastic [Nov. 13th, 2004|11:41 pm]
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hey kip,
yesterday i was sad when you left cuz i realized that i actually appreciate the times we have when we do get to talk. 12-4am thanks alot. At least im not the only one that thinks how i think in some ways- its comforting. i miss vedging out at your house on fridays and all that good stuff and it's alittle wierd cuz i dont get good talks at college since im the only one there "representin" ha. I came across an old note from 6/12/04 tonight. It's funny how everything you were worried about fixed itself and its funny how im the odd man out now. i'll live i suppose even though it kills me and makes me want to cry every now and then. Sometimes i think about 4 years from now and what i actually want to do with myself... if im not gunna live in chicago. It took 2 hours 30 minutes just to get home and i fliped out cuz the traffic sucks and too over crowded for my taste. I wonder how much more i will miss you guys when i do move even farther from " home " to pursue all the internship oppurtunities i shall have in the western states in 2 years.... and if so if all friendships in general are pointless because i will never see half the people ever again or just for holidays.... or if the whole moral of my thoughts is just to enjoy the people that make you happy while you can. i hate when i analyze things.
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ah nuts. [Sep. 14th, 2004|10:46 pm]
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whoa this thing really does suck. plus i've never used it before

to miss ray of lite comin atchu babydoll:

stop breaking everyone's hearts. our old friend likes to tell me how you are the source of us chicagoin's sorrows these days. well, i have to admit you are a little part of mine. i think you are the first girl i've ever actually missed or needed. i know that we have been apart at the most 2 weeks so far...but i'm also aware how it will change shortly. you asked how i could be sad when you were here before, but it's because i knew you were just going to leave again. you're lucky because you have other options around you 24/7 and i'm jealous. i know it's my fault and i'm being a baby but that's okay. little vents in little letter because well, no one will really know.

love, KIP <3 <3
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1 2 skip a show [Jul. 18th, 2004|12:08 am]
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www.xanga.com/home.aspx?user=spicedworld

thats my new journal guys cuz this one is a lil stink.
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wow [Jul. 11th, 2004|02:18 pm]
Ray of light commin at cha gurl
WHAT happened tothe frickin posts? andthe comments? and everything! this lj stinks.

KISS POISON was GREAT! thanks for spendingthe day with me kip!

anyhow, i think i might get a xanga instead, i hear they dont delete your posts randomly.

i'lllet you guysknow if i do
<3ray for life
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back in the sack [Jul. 7th, 2004|07:53 pm]
Ray of light commin at cha gurl
fuck. i'm back guys! not that anyone is going to read this, but it's all good. man it's been a long time and things have been changin as always. i've been looking through this damn thing every time i'm bored to find some cool niggas. amazing i know. life's interesting. parents are gay and money doesn't make life good people. i'm sick of people jumping on me and how i'm a hipster that don't understand the lifestyle i'm TRYING to live - well you dont know shit assholes. im' glad i have my boyfriend kip and that's all that matters baby. kk is here as always and all we need is each other. im' glad to get this thing going again, hopefully it'll help me sort through things and it doesn't just turn into some emo journal.

i went out with the boys last night and caused chaos as usual. i'm so tough yu just don't know. first we used the five finger discount LOL omg and <3<3<3 xoxxo you smell. i rule.

get crunk <3<3 ray p.s. you can have hearts anywhere you want.
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18 [Dec. 3rd, 2003|09:02 pm]
Ray of light commin at cha gurl
well i actually enjoyed myself this past weekend. hoo-rah for that...



flowers would have been nice, but the farm theme is just as good?
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