||[Dec. 3rd, 2004|05:53 pm]
Ray of light commin at cha gurl
Well that was the most Kip-talk you have ever used, meaning you're completely broad in your ideas and not specific at all. So even though i don't understand much, way to go team. i gues i know what it feels like to be on the other end for once. dude i completely understand why you wouldn't want to be here and i told you that before. you have everything going for you out there? and you really don't have anything here. work and school consumes my life, not new friends and fun times. i know mike is still completely attached to you and giving you crap, that's why i wish you two would just give it up and move on. really, still living in that past isn't going to get anyone anywhere. it's over. yea i think the summer wil suck for you. i mean i don't know how much you enjoy going out with me one night then katy or nick or linda or whoever the next, i'm sure we don't match up to brian and all those people anymore. god, at least by summer i may or may not have a new job, a steady group of friends, anything positive. i think it would be good for both of us if so. i mean i could bring you along anywhere if i had real friends and good places to go, let alone time to do it. so who knows, i have some time to sort that out. i'm sad that everytime i think i have a break, it falls though (when has it ever been any other way though). the people at work getting fired...now two guys going to the fucking army in less than two monthes! where does that leave me? i don't have the time nor energy to deal with mike anymore. kev is a once in a month or two type of friend now, so that amounts to nothing. i have the same attitude towards everything as always, but my musical taste has grown into new areas. and these areas lack any friends at all. it kind of sucks, i'm too busy to be really upset about it right now. i'm not even in the mood for chrstmas or shopping anymore, i just want to sleep or be drunk ha.
things suck, whatever. on my free time i do miss you mucho amounts, mostly because you are the only girl i like. no one to talk to, spend the night with, shop, find guys, anything. back to watching tv so i can catch up in my week of absence.